Light my candle.

WHY do I have so many expectations for myself? Honestly, HONESTLY, who do I think I am? It just feels like I'm suffocating myself, but I'm failing at that too. I just wish I could say that I knew what I wanted, but all I can say is that I think I know what I want. Why aren't I sure? Is it because I'm 'young and naïve'? 'Cause if youth is the biggest factor playing into this, then please, Father Time, speed up. If it's wisdom I'm lacking, then would you please point me in the right direction? I'm so very lost.

Seriously though, what do I want?'
It's funny because, people always tells me I seem "responsible, insightful, and articulate"....if only they really knew.

Let's plan this out together...


I'll grow up (one day) travel the world (or not) fall in love (skipping that part) write a novel? (overrated) grow a beard,, get a truck driving license, join the circus....okay, now I'm just being silly and this was a FAIL of a plan, but it's an example of how my mind works.

Why can't you buy the really important things in life? Like, oh I don't know, a good life?

.....where the h*ll am I going with this?