Do you really want to live forever?

Please-Please-Please don't ruin this, mind. (Yes, I am talking to my brain.) For the incessant thinking you cause, I lose precious moments in the real world.

Luckily, lately the 'real world' has been a much brighter and happier place. Part of me feels like I'm racing the clock, and that this is not a feeling that can be obtained for long. But it doesn't matter to me, 5 minutes feeling like this instilled enough hope to last. How is it, that someone can simply appear from thin air and be exactly what you needed? Perhaps there is a merciful and loving God, or perhaps two people with the same needs are somehow magnetically attracted to one another...I'm sure there could be hundreds of spiritual or scientific explanations people might come up with, but all I know is how I feel when he touches me and I would never attempt to explain something that sacred.

At this point, it's not necessarily about him as an individual, more so it is about the things that come with him. Gifts or maybe just traits, that were bestowed upon him from some divine power, that make him unlike another experience thus far in my life. I know, Reader, you're thinking: "What the hell, this soon?". Yes. Because, like I said it's not about him per-say, it's about his being, just the simple fact that he exists. Now I know I can move forward: Progress>Regress. Understand?

There is a part of me afraid of admitting how I really feel because that's always been part of my defense system, but I am releasing my inhibitions and starting anew.
When you are completely honest with yourself, when you sincerely follow your gut, you really truly are more likely to find what you desire.